Erotic maturity requires spiritual maturity

I’ve suffered and grieved so much this lifetime ...

The pain of loving DEEPLY only gets heavier

with every new loss that inevitably hits 🔥🔥🔥

Do I allow this to take me out ?!

HELL NO .

that’s the game of mortality, baby !

ITS WHY the fuck WE’RE HERE 🐉

TO LOVE EACH OTHER

PURELY and MADLY 🖤

not in spite of ….

but because

this all ends .

I surrender every moment …

because every ending gives way to a new beginning

and entry to a new level of depth

most will never be brave enough to experience .

and that’s their choice 🤷

life has fucking shattered me

over and over again ….

to a state of existence and receptivity

that allows me to say —

with great assurance ….

I AM LOVE,

INCARNATE

❤️‍🔥

come 👏🏽 FOR 👏🏿 ME 👏🏻 2026

i’m ready for whatever you got !!!

and i’m ALL GOOD

with giving, relentlessly …

i am finally ready

to R E C E I V E 👐🏽

a’ho ✨

What does it FEEL like to truly inhabit our femininity 🌹🐆

Not performative femininity — 

but rather, that deeply surrendered

emotionally intelligent 

spacious AF

wildly fluid energy .... 

That receptive, adaptable BE-ing state 

that is a natural part of every single human on earth 

[to one degree or another] 

regardless of your biological s£x or gender !

LISTEN

I grew up on the east side of Buffalo (New York) and I’ve lived allllllllllllll over the world …

I know ALL ABOUT survival mode 🤺

I learned firsthand why women in Mexico City will only ride the very first subway car ...

to avoid being assaulted

[I opted for uber when I lived there and — having lived in NYC at a young age — as well as San Francisco and Oakland for many years … it’s hella rare for me to feel uncomfortable on public transportation]

Girls and young women in SE Asia

(and your own city … guaranteed )

are being trafficked even as I write this blog post ...

Endemic violence against women STAYS on the rise in the Middle East ...

And internalized misogyny is a major theme in many communities across 🇺🇸

I see / hear it all the time ... 

women turning on other women 😳

I’m not saying it’s safe to be a woman —

because it isn’t .

But having been around the BLOCK  🌏

I’ve learned to cultivate a state of embodiment 

that centers my deeply feminine essence 

💰 irrespective of external conditions 💰

OF COURSE —

I feel safer / more revered / adored / invisible / disrespected / unsafe in certain spaces

and communities more than others ... 💯 FACTS

But I will no longer suppress or apologize or censor aspects of myself

for fear of being attacked by men or judged by other women .…

I’m here to CELEBRATE the body 💥 sensuality 💥 power 💥 creativity 💥 and vitality 💥 I was born and blessed with …

How bout you, boo ❓🤔

There are times to sit, listen and learn —

humbling ourselves to the wisdom 

of those who’ve walked before us ……

And then there are times 

when only your body knows the next step ❤️‍🔥

Calling all BADDIES

ready to CLAIM the MAJESTY 

of being born in a woman’s body 👑

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We are lonelier than ever and addicted to our own stress hormones …

I know what you're thinking ... 

I'm not an artist

and/or

I just can't relate to your tortured story replete with drugs, illegal raves and a sex addiction 😳

💯 FAIR

but hear me out …

It's true - as a former drug / sex addict in recovery

I am no longer addicted to adrenaline .  Or cortisol .  

But these issues are more universal than you may think ...

and critical to address for optimal health outcomes

[ including but not limited to a sustainable sex drive ❤️‍🔥 ]

as well as access to ENDLESS creativity 💫

and the nervous system capacity to sustain healthy and nourishing relationships !

“For those habituated to high levels of internal stress since early childhood, it is the absence of stress that creates unease, evoking boredom and a sense of meaninglessness .  People may become addicted to their own stress hormones— adrenaline and cortisol "  Gabor Maté , When the Body says NO 

The emphasis here 🇺🇸 on productivity, ambition and damn-near constant activity creates a glorification of stress and a [toxic] masculine paradigm of "busyness"  ...

which, in turn, results in an entire population with chronically elevated cortisol levels

Burnout, depression, chronic fatigue, impaired immunity, hormonal imbalance, sexual dysfunction and a slew of autoimmune disorders will inevitably follow ….

it's just science, y'all . 

And sadly, I can verify all of these empirical data experientially,

as I've already navigated [ and healed ] everything on that list .

Nearly 20 years ago,

I was forced to change my lifestyle . 


My body left me no choice ...

that's how very WISE our bodies are .


When we allow our nervous systems to ADAPT to a constant state of fight or flight, we become accustomed and habituated to elevated cortisol .  Even addicted to it … 

This adaptation mimics substance abuse in the way the body relies on it and seeks out stressful media / situations / jobs / relationships ...

unable to relax and surrender to pleasure .

Western civilization, with its emphasis on materialism and external gratification,

has created a WHOLE ASS CULTURE of denial and distraction 🙄

Rather than confronting deeper issues, we seek "solace" in external stimuli - an endlessly defeating cycle reinforcing chronic stress, loneliness and very poor physical and mental health outcomes . 

 This is one of MANY reasons ...

I created my yearlong immersion program LUST4LYFE

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From Eve to Lilith to Isis …

When forced to choose between belonging and authenticity, I have always gone with the latter .  

I am no stranger to the plight of Eve

or Lilith ...  

The above is a self-portrait I took at age 16 .  

That was the year I “ate the forbidden fruit” or “lost my innocence” … as the old stories go .  TBH — the only thing I feel like I lost that night was the illusion that I could survive in this society as an artist / lover without meeting near CONSTANT resistance and projection .  

Prior to this photograph, I had no idea how evocative and subversive just being my damn self would be in a woman’s body …

As someone who has never been very “demure” — or apologetic — about my humanity, I have mostly been treated like a “shadow” symbol [often for women] and sex object [often men] … rather than being witnessed / related to / courted as the complex and mysterious human being I am .  

But we are capable of so much more than treating one another like objects or mirrors or transactions…yes?

The roman catholic church was the first patriarchal system to exile me .  Like Eve I was escorted out of Sunday school on multiple occasions for “asking too many questions … ”  The priest would calmly sit me down on a dark, broody stairwell before proceeding to systematically evade every opportunity to delve into the esoteric mysteries I so deeply craved ….. lecturing me instead on my “behavior” How very patronizing .  

Suffice it to say, I became a full-on atheist for many years after that, heading straight into the underground rave scene .  

Like Lilith I was determined to forge a new path all on my own, with nothing but my rage and passion as guideposts .  

This led me all over the world [quite literally] and eventually, I settled in San Francisco in my late 20s, pursuing recovery for  drug  and sex addiction shortly thereafter .  I had journeyed a bit too deep into the underworld and couldn’t pull myself out .  That’s when I found Vipassana meditation, Jungian analysis and the Esalen Institute .  

I needed to reset my sense of home and find routes to the transcendent realm that weren’t going to kill me .

Continuing to seek pathways back to my body / self and new methods of integrating all of the expanded consciousness I had acquired over the past decade, I went on a vision fast, studied with a couple of shamans and ultimately began my somatic experiencing journey .  In 2018, I began working with the energy of Isis  (the egyptian goddess — just to be clear) … left the country on yet another solo sojourn and uncovered my power and purpose as an artist, priestess and intimacy catalyst . 

Through my instinctual ability to be emotionally transparent and vulnerable, I noticed time and time again that the individuals and couples working with me one-on-one would organically begin to erode any barriers to authenticity and connection they were facing .  These results helped me find clarity and confidence …

Many will try and convince you that you have to choose between belonging and authenticity .  

But you don’t .  

Persistence (and a lot of grace / trial and error) is the main reason I’ve been able to cultivate this level of depth and intimacy with myself .  

And I genuinely hope my stubborn and ravenous journey inspires and empowers you in some way !  

If you heard whispers of your own soul in this story, I’d loooooooove to invite you to join us on retreat in Los Angeles September 5-6th as we will be invoking and reclaiming the P O W E R of goddess energy …

LEARN MORE HERE 🌹